Learning to Cope

I’ve been sitting here, starring at your picture on the wall.
Still trying to discover a way to deal with it all.
No matter how far away, I can still feel your embrace.
And it seems like just yesterday I saw your beautiful face.
Piece after piece, everything about me became broken;
And everything I felt was left unspoken.
It didn’t take long before a friendship was built.
Which is why I continue to carry all this guilt.
I lost every single breath
The day I heard about your death.
For years, no one could tell,
How I was a wreck and going through hell.
I never knew that would be the last day
I would ever see you walk away.
And the reason for the tears I cry,
Is because I never got to say good-bye.
Without any warning, I became extremely lost.
Giving up on life, at any cost.
Ignoring everything I had always knew,
Isolating myself for what I was going through.
I let everything go and started to grieve.
I wasn’t ready for you to leave.
I wanted to be alone, day and night.
Wishing you back to make everything alright.
I have to step back and take a breather
Because every memory cuts me deeper.
I will learn how to live without one another
And things will start getting better.
You were a wonderful friend on every part.
You still live on deep inside my heart.
You are not gone; you are still in my dreams.
For years you have helped with every life’s extreme.
You have given me strength to overcome pain,
You have given me courage to not go insane.
You have carried me through times I am mad
And you picked me up when I am sad.
You are the guardian angel looking over me
Your spirit lives in everything I see.
Day after day, I look back at the years,
And how great they would be if you were still here.
Often I wonder what you would do or who you’d be
But I’ve held on too long, I must let you free.
One day, I know I’ll be fine without you
But you will always be with me in anything I do.
With every step, you lived with happiness and grace.
No one will ever be able to take your place.